i found a reason

i feel like crying.
not from sadness, but from joy. my soul mourns as his existence no longer controls my own. i cry because until this very point i have been torturing myself. torturing myself with the unfathomable idea of letting go. but now i have a reason. i know i cannot be happy waiting for the day he wants me again.
i'm done waiting.
and i'm done being broken.

i cry because i never thought i would let myself be happy again. i cry because i finally found a reason to smile.
and i cry because you're that reason.
i know i'm not perfect. and i know you're not either. but that's exactly what's so perfect about it.
you're the part of me that i've been missing.
and i found you.

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