I wish

Here's to my almost lover, I owe you my word. The words you never really wanted to hear, but died inside when I didn't say them. The words locked inside with the empty key and all the broken pieces of my memory. I fight and fight and kick and scream and wish you would just see me.  it kinda hurts how uninterested you are in how much i still care about you. But I'm not giving up on who I was when I was with you. I miss her silent happiness. I miss her frivility. I miss the time when I actually believed in what I could become. And now I wish. I wish, I wish. in things unseen. I'm giving, giving and you took it from me. I wish you needed me. Kind of the way I still need you, but you're too stubborn. and you're too bold. and you're too rash. to see the beauty in the past. I feel like a fool, letting your worries trouble me, letting those eyes speak to me, feeling you hate me, wrap your cold fingers around me, and feel me struggle. I feel like a fool, I put everything I had left into loving you. Now what do I have? All the things you chose to ignore, left behind in the poverty of my eyes. so long blue skies. I'm here to say, I feel like a fool. Telling you all the words you never really wanted to hear. Wishing you hadn't died inside when I didn't say them. Locked away, it kinda hurts how uninterested you are in how much I still care about you. And now I wish, I wish, I wish, you might feel me too.
Goodnight my almost lover, It's getting late, much too late.
goodnight