at sixteen

"they say I 'did it' on purpose... but she doesn't understand that the problem isn't doing at all, it's thinking: I can't think of anything but murder. I have no idea why, it just happens"
-Divided Minds by Pamela and Carolyn Spiro

At sixteen-
what do people know about that girl under the mask?
the empty looks, the skeptic thoughts..
a wave of maddness that kreeps into her mind as she tries so hard to just be a normal teenager.
At sixteen..
sees the world.
feels the cries-
all the voices.
At sixteen
find herself reading more than shopping
thinking more than sleeping
and writing more than eating.
At sixteen
she worries
carries an unbearable burden..
the burden of lives
a million pieces of broken glass
falling to the floor.

But they will never know

At sixteen,
I've found the world, I've found escape,
I've found me,

even if she's not exactly who I want to be...