forever the searching soul

   Feel. A four letter word that contains the entire alphabet of your soul. A human without feelings would just be a body, a motionless, passionless, empty, sack of bones and flesh. The ability, no the privilege, to feel the world around us, is what separates us from simply existing and being alive. The world acts on us, and we act on the world. A simultaneous cycle of never ending use and misuse. When you block that cycle, what you find is that the world really isn't spinning at all. It's humans, circling around the same passions and weaknesses over and over again. Why? Because that's the way we were designed. If a clock was made to tell the temperature, we would know right from wrong, we wouldn't struggle, we wouldn't feel like someone was stabbing us in the chest when we were hurting. We feel because we fear, and we're afraid because we feel. Sometimes, you try to push away all emotion, because in your mind, you think that you cant hurt if you cant feel. But all you're doing is hurting yourself, because one day something really precious and special is going to happen and you're not going to feel anything. nothing at all. And the you wont be able to feel the good times or the bad. And that is tragic. An emotional suicide. You look for someone to blame but there's no one to be found. You blame the pain, but pain is the only thing that's made you. And the world becomes a shadow. And the only light can be found from inside you, but you're dying. You try to find it, but you're lying.. It's almost gone, but your praying.. praying for the empty, the lost, the scavenger. You need to eat, you're weak. Feed your soul, feel it's real. You're not fading, its only you're perception that has faded. But you are there, forever the searching soul. forever the hunger toll, a, b, c, d, e, f, g... i wish god would be good to me, I need to feel, his mighty hand.. i need an extra pair of footprints in the sand... I feel you there, I know I do, if all i can feel,


I can feel you.